Terry

When I look in my mirror and try to see my body with your eyes.. I become afraid.. I am too honest with myself not to see the flaws and my self consciousness returns and I look away.. in my mind and heart I am still young but I look in the mirror and see only a shadow of what I feel in my heart.. when I am talking with you those feelings of insecurity seem to melt away.. I can only hope and pray and dream that when your eyes look upon me that they will view the person as a whole and that through your eyes I will not see the breasts that are small and no longer youthful, a stomach that has been stretched by 3 pregnancies and thighs that have lost their tone and are dimpled... through your eyes I hope to see a look of love and passion and of desire... Stupid fears? Yes, they are.. but fears nonetheless. Yes, most of what I consider my flaws can be changed with exercise and some hard work but not before you see me, not before that first impression is made.... this, my dear Englishman, is my biggest fear of all..... this is where I consider myself fragile.... this is where my insecurities lie. And yet for tonight I will disrobe and touch my breasts and run my hands down my sides, my stomach, hips and thighs and I will pretend that you are worshipping each stroke with your eyes and responding with your own body... and through your eyes I will imagine that I am a woman who is desired. xxx

DRIFTING IN DREAMS Quietly, in the darkness, drifting in dreams, Glittering stars chase endless moon beams And while the moon crosses the velvet black sky, Thoughts of you in my mind, in sleep I sigh. Drifting away in deepening silence, the night, Your arms steal around me, holding me tight. We are so far apart, but our souls touch so near Barely a whisper, in dreams, your gentle voice I hear. Comes the dawn, I awaken, unfolds a new day, I’ve been Drifting in Dreams the whole night away. The morning sun rises, Roses kissed by the dew, I’ve been Drifting in Dreams... just Loving You.